I can sense that my body's tired. Like my eyes are soon gonna shut tight forever. But my mind is still working like a clock. Only slept for an hour last night. Coz I spent my night awake doing....

A video compilation on how I surprised Yuanyun just for her to see how it all happened HAHA! Crazy. I was too excited to edit the whole thing I guess so I stayed up from 4-7am doing it. Lighting is shitty but I guess I can't expect too much from a camera which does not have optimum video functions. Nevertheless, I enjoyed doing it.




HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAN YUAN YUN!!!!
One of my bestest friends. I wish you all the love in the world!

And yeah, don't have much pictures, coz the lighting was hella bad over there. You'd need proPRO cameras to give the best quality pictures.

Anyway, after only sleeping for an hour last night, I had to wake up at 8.30am for a car wash around a Kembangan estate to raise funds for my school's OCIP trip to Laos. I swear, the people there are rich. Not Laotians. I meant, Kembanganians. Hahaha. Big, beautiful houses and ahem, extremely generous people in terms of the amount they were willing to part with. 100 dollars per car that we washed. And we only washed 4 cars, amounting to almost 400 dollars. And that was just MY side of the OCIP group. It was crazy! They were willing to pay that kind of amount just for a damn car wash! It really just emphasises the disparities and the polarities of the rich and the poor. For once, I felt like a Bangla in my own country. I swear they were filthy rich with 2 cars or more, each. But I must also say, those who were willing to let us wash their cars were each nice in their own ways. Some served us 100plus with cakes and others talked to us nicely by inviting us to sit just outside their homes for a chitchat. Wow.

I'm not even exaggerating. Of course I've seen bigger homes like bungalows and stuff but these are really quite exclusive landed properties that are quite above a notch from the rest. They look exclusive, and modern... oozing of style and elegance. Before doing this carwash thing, I was skeptical about them even willing to let us wash their cars since I assume they wouldn't want our filthy and unskilled hands touching their cars. Thus, I really was sincerely impressed when I got there.

Got me thinking a lot, I'd say. This car wash at Kembangan.

After car wash, trained down to Raffles Place for filming. It's sick. After being so tired from the car wash earlier in the day under the bloody blazing hot freakin sun, I had to continue on with filming!

But filming for 900 went well today! We caught a lot of nice awesome shots at the area near Fullerton and I'm quite positive about the video turning out well. Hopefully, the final product will look good. Eggcited. Mega thanks to my bro and his friend who helped us. It was considerably fun I would say, today's filming! Am happy.


AND NOW,

THE GRAND FINALE.





sleep.

Yalrightttt, I think this is the latest I've gone home after editing a Broadcast Journ (BJ) video in school. 10pm and then dinner/supper. Reached home at 12. And I am zonkedddd. But here I am.


Anyway, this was the first BJ story we did quite some time ago. Like probably a month ago.

Am editing the second one now which shall soon be released once it's approved by my lecturer. So in the meantime, you can enjoy this first video of me talking and speaking to you like a real tv journalist hahaha. It's about a new food centre set up in NTU and it's called Xin Shi Jie. If you're Muslim, I wouldn't recommend it, coz it's def. not halal hahaha. But so far, my Chinese friends have told me the food's good. My CHINESEEE friends hahaha I speak as if I'm not Chinese. No manners. Some of the food are a little pricey but overall still alright. Haven't tried it myself though. It was a nice experience being in the shoes of a broadcast journalist for the first time. So yeah, please do enjoy and soak in the sights and sounds of my beautiful face and melodious voice yeehw.






IF YOU THOUGHT THOSE NEWS REPORTERS HAD IT EASY, Helllll no!


The final part when you look into the camera and say your lines is the hardest part coz you tend to forget what you've to say once those prying eyes of the camera lens are set on you. You become quite retarded. Ok that's a little extreme, but yeah, the point is, you tend to fumble once you say your lines on camera. Le'sigh. Won't show you those embarrassing outtakes. Anyway, I don't have time to make a video that shows me making a fool outta myself anywhos!

This was the very first video my project mates and I made, so it is quite unpolished. Nevertheless, I thought it a good first time haha.

Countless edits but I guess worth the final product. ;D

See you when I see you for the next video I'm gonna place up on the Chengdu Pambassador thing that's been going round. Esp Facebook. Can't wait!

Gonna hand in my GemX University Application package today. Damn, I swear to God I hope it goes through. All that dreaming about NZ. XXXX


p/s OMG IF YOU STARE AT THE BOKEH BELOW LONG ENOUGH, THE GLOWY ORANGE CIRCLES START TO MOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Faint bokeh. To set the mood.


Anyway, my 20th birthday was spent ok. With good friends and family. I think that's enough for a birthday. Thank you for the lovely cards and cake, my friends. I ask for nothing but your presence and well wishes! And they have been fulfilled so thank you very much. I might have appeared slightly on the off-side but I do hope you guys know that I was very appreciative of everything, to a point that I felt undeserving. I was happy lah!

I haven't felt this for a while in all of my past birthdays but it's the first time I feel really grateful and thankful to have my parents and brother there with me on my birthday. Usually, it has been anticipation for celebrations with friends. And only friends. But this year, it has been a joy just having a meal with them and talking cock as usual. My family is not like other families, and I think we have just about enough, for me to feel happy to have a family like mine. I wouldn't need more caring or understanding parents. Or another brother. They're enough as they are. I wouldn't ask for more. It is a unique family and that's all I have to say. And I don't like sharing anything about them with others coz I think matters of the heart(family) should be kept within and not be told to the world. I don't talk about my family to people very much coz I think they shouldn't be. Just keep it to yourself, that's all where it needs to remain. I don't have to praise them just to prove to you anything. I know it.

Just Skyped with Suxin for 2 hours. (2-4am) Wished me all the way from Korea. And egged me on with words of motivation for me to study hard. Coz I realised I have been losing that momentum and I really needed someone to tell me to press on. One of the best people I've met in Uni. Somehow, you just know who your true friends are. Even some whom I don't talk to very much, there IS still a connection and the feeling that I know they'd stick their necks out for me. Whereas there are some, you can talk to about many things, but they're not as sincere as you think they are. YOU CAN JUST FEEL IT. These things don't have to be expressed overtly. You sense it.



Anyway, aside from all the friends family blahblahblah, I must say one thing.



And that is,

I NEED TO PUT MY BIRTHDATE ON FACEBOOK. I HAVE TO>

I NEEED the attention.

I CRAVE IT. I have to HAVE people to wish me. Yes, I need at least 200 wishes on my wall to feel satisfied. I NEED people to know it's my birthday. HAHAHAHAHAHHA.

I need it. I do. I can't pretend I don't want them not to know.

But I guess this is the point in time when you do know who bothers about your birthday. And I know now. People like Lionel and Xi Hsien bothered to wish me through text and I am thoroughly grateful through and through. They're gems that shine I swear.

Because to be honest, I didn't wish them on theirs this year. That's how f-ed up I am. And they still bothered.

Experiment. That's how you find out. Who. Cares.

Now I know. And now, I'm gonna put my birthdate back on Facebook. HAHAHAHA. I'm an attention-whore.

I will turn 20. In a few days' time. Yet, it's the first time in my life I don't feel excited. I feel... nonchalant. Have I grown too old? Maybe so!

But this year's gonna be different. This year, it's not gonna be about me. It will be for everyone else around me. I didn't even mark my birthday on the calendar but my mom's instead. Won't wait! I've asked all of my old buds to have dinner together on Thursday night coz I think... all of us haven't been talking much in the year 2012. So much changes in our lives the moment we stepped into Uni and time just hasn't stopped for us to catch up! So perhaps, I'll make my birthday the day for all of us to do that before the feeling of distance grows so wide it becomes a chasm and my virginity is gone. Talk rot.

Guess I'll ride on the positivity this birthday week to make amends. To a lot of things.

Harpy Burthday to mee.

This was on the ST today.

The search for the Next Chengdu Pambassador,





It's all over freakin Facebook with people liking the page a hundred times over. But it was a really fun story to cover. Eye-OPENER.




Fellow project mate Nikki, who pitched the idea. So glad she did!



TEEHEE!



Shy panda.
It was funny seeing the children attacking the panda and slapping its ass and all LOL LOL.
But we'd already seen who's underneath the costume and fake fur, so like the magic is gone.

And....

Here comes,

INTERNATIONAL CELEB, Juliet Simms from Season 2 of The Voice!






She was there to officiate the event haha.

It's damn cool to watch the media doing their thing and photographers shouting stuff like, "Yeah, give us more of that!" when she flashed the candid pose above. It's what I see on tv. So I thought it was so exciting to see them do this in front of me tahahaha.


Getting interviewed.
I honestly thought I'd get a chance to have a one-on-one interview with her hahahahahaha. And I think we were damn lucky coz we chose to come on down on the right day coz Sunday was supposed to be the day she and the contestants would come (according to their website). But wow, lucky us, they HAPPENED to change their schedule of events to Saturday and we got to film all of this down! So awezum!!!!



Her entering the maze. Objective: To find her way out in the fastest time possible.



And then, her running out.



Victorious.




GET A LOAD OF THE MEDIA.

They're like LEGIT Media companies. So freakin cool. I was really damn excited and shitz. There was a Taiwanese Media company as well, don't know the name tho.

So the whole thing was really quite fascinating, I totally only expected to film normal members of public, and here she is with the contestants. Lucky us////

This job is really quite exhilarating. Imagine seeing all these people and the crowd.


But above all, I made a friend. Hahah.


For someone whom I hadn't met ever, she was really one of the nicest, most conversational stranger I've ever met. Possibly coz she's a comms student as well trahahha. Only she studied in a private institution and is 3 years older. Talked about school, exchange, internship, her experiences. Really quite interesting.

I always find it intriguing to meet people like her whom I've only met briefly but sustained a very nice conversation. Ok, I tried to put it down in words, but I can't seem to put a finger to how I'm gonna explain this... Anyway, I really enjoy talking to people anytime anywhere but sad knowing that our conversation would only last in that short brief moment in time. And it's these conversations that will add to your depth of knowledge and experiences through life. URGH I feel like an inarticulate baboon but I can't really seem to explain what I want to convey. BUT YEAH I HOPE YOU KINDA GET WHAT I MEAN. ; )


Later on that day, headed down to Republic Poly to watch WKWSCI's very own adaptation of Andrew Bovell's 'Speaking in Tongues'. Familiar Strangers, Paparazzi 2012.

I thought the cast fit their roles perfectly. Like knowing what the actors' personalities are like, I thought they did a good job at casting. I wouldn't say I'm great at judging what's good acting, but to me, it was pretty good. All those practice must've done'em well.

I teared at one part of the play coz I could really understand the pain the character was going through? You must be thinking, "Knn, this bitch trying to act artsey all. Stupid girl, go back to your coffeeshop". HAAHAHA. But really, two thumbs up to Tammie. I thought she did well. So hard to make me feel these emotions coz I always think theatrics can be a bit dramatic. There's a tendency to be overly-dramatic while acting. Sometimes... the most subtle of movements bring forth a character's personality best. Everyone has their little quirks, so it's really the subtle things that work.

Acting is tough. Having done it before in Jc, it's so important to let your guard down and be less self-conscious with your surroundings. Takes a great amount of focus and self-confidence to pull it off. Coz, you know everyone's watching you and you're acting as someone you're not, and you don't want people to be scrutinising the way you do or say things. You really need to get comfortable.



So ANYWAY, a few pictures from my camera.




HEHEHE HILARY YOU'RE ON MA BLOG Hahahahha. Crazy girl was excited just coz of that!
Dayum, look at her nicely shaped eyebrows, compared to my messy unplucked virgin eyebrows lololol. I sux.

Amazing how fast I transformed from roving reporter to civilian huh.


Bunch of weirdos.


...
Tho I have to admit I'm friends with them.



(a few of) my Sioux freshiezzzz.

So nice of them to have them come support their own Sioux people.


Yalrighttttt, that's it my friends. Hope you guys are enjoying life as well. And not having a hard time coz I guess life is really too short to not feel fine. Hahaha, oh shut up!

I dunno what's wrong with me today but I simply could not read further than one line before my mind would drift to other things. CRAZY LEH. Couldn't study the whole bloody day from morning till night. What the hell is wrong with me. I'm just so damn awake but I can't focus. I caught myself reading the same few lines over and over again, it was as if my eyeballs were raping that paragraph over and over till I told myself, you know what, I think I have to stop. It's not working. Nothing is going in.

Hey Bitchez, I was on TV YAWWWW!?!?!?!



Channel News Asia IN YO FACE!!! And my friend got featured on The Straits Times. All of it happened just 2 days ago.

Best of all, we were unbeknownst to it. None of us knew we were gonna be featured DURING class F!!!!! AT 9AM. ON A MONDAY. AFTER RECESS WEEK. AND I WAS DRESSED IN MY SHABBIEST ATTIRE EVER AND I WAS SO TIRED AND SICK WITH FLU AND COUGH. Omg, it's always the case. You're caught offguard on your most unglam days. Urgh/ Best of all, I didn't even know I was being filmed for it. I just thought he was any ordinary camera man. And I was doing class work. Until EVERYTHING was over and a friend told me at 2am in the morning the next day. Didn't think it was really gonna be ON TV but just video until our prof told us today. Le'Sigh. It was really, seconds of fame on TV. Wow, my life's wish is fulfilled hahahahahaha siao. Millions of eyes glued to my beautiful face and luscious Asian hair. I exaggerate.

My school's got a Newsplex and wow, never knew it was THIS big of a news piece. Shoulda peeled my eyes open yesterday. Alright, more details in the video.

As of now, back to work.... as I bask in my 15-second superstar fame and glory.

Well, I guess 15 seconds' enough for me, unlike Amy Cheong who's in double hot soup now. I'd hide under the covers for the rest of my life if I were her.

Never knew it was this hard to merely ASK for something

Have to request if my neighbours are willing to let their kids be filmed for my group's 225 video. I have been thinking about it since the time of our project meeting which was yesterday.. how to broach the subject in the most polite yet persuasive way possible. Grappling to find a way round it. Urgh!!! Hate how it's supposedly an easy task, yet an excruciatingly tough one at the same time. Because I merely have to ASK but asking can be so tough. If they do allow, our filming can commence! Otherwise, we'd have to backtrack and search for kids forever.

Never really talked to the parents before, only the grandfather, so that's why I think it's hard. Anti-smoking campaign. Or maybe it's coz I'm afraid of rejection, coz I know how desperate we are for the kid. My mom was like, "... but be prepared for rejection" Shitbucks, that word was just the worst thing I can imagine at a time like this. Rejection. Maybe that's why guys are afraid of that, coz they don't want to face rejection and suffer eternal shame and humiliation. Likewise, it is going to be a very awkward thing for me whenever I see them. Next door neighbours leh, how to run away siol.


p.s Ok, grandfather gave me the thumbs up. But parents' approval is still crucial. Have to wait till they come back home in the evening. Urgh. Omg, when he asked what the video was gonna be about, and said "about kids?" I smiled sheepishly and said "Yeah..." F*!!! It's a bloody anti-smoking ad and I couldn't possibly say YES right?! COZ HE FREAKIN SMOKES.

p.p.s Oh yeahhh... I got them ;D My neighbour's awesomez. [edit 11.10pm]

Exhausted. Ran so many errands today. 'Errands' was the word, thanks huiquan/

Woke up at 9am, got to school by 11:30 for Ocip discussion. Then went to GemX to officially verify my documents, followed by payment of school fees at SAO (paid them all on my own so proud of maself hahah), took IC photos and afterthat, got 2 jabs + Med Checkup at Ntu's clinic for Ocip to Laos. One Typhoid, the other flu.

Met my mom at 6 @ Raffles Place (after doing everything in school), to find the perfect bridesmaid dress for me. My goodness, shopping could never be THIS easy. Took so long before I finally settled on a mint looking dress which is the theme for my cousin's wedding. It isn't exactly mint-coloured, a little more of a jade colour in fact. But it was the only one which could fit my body nicely. Not everything could fit me. My boobs were too small for a lot of dresses.. they just drooped in the front and my hips looked really strange in some dresses. They hung on my body very awkwardly. I hate those with elastic bands at the waist. They look extremelyyyyyyy strange on me I swear. Found that out quite a while ago. They just look awful :S Made my body look really short. But at least, I finally found one!

After all that, it was 8pm. Waited for Huiquan for almost an hour before she was done with her hiphop dance class at 9pm at Dhoby ghaut. Yeah, tell me about it, hiphop hahaha!! Felt like I was starving but not really also.

Headed over to Old Airport Road for some good food.

My favourite song, as of now.
I know it has been around for quite some time already ahaha. Temper Trap.
Fell in love with the video first, then the song. I love the beat that comes at the start. The red head is good and they must've danced to this a million times, with the train passing by on time.

The Sioux dinner was alright but it ended really weirdly. :S

Anyway, gotta start on my term paper already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sleep less, do more.