I've put the link on my tagboard! http://wkwscifoc14.tumblr.com/

All of you who've been asking me about my school the past month or so, now's your time to experience the magic of wkwsci ;)

I hope y'all get into the group y'all want, which is the yellow group hahaha. I'm just biased lah coz I've been in the yellow group in year 1 as a freshie and year 2 as a GL. My friend, fellow intern, says she hopes to be in the yellow group as well coz they look the most decent? and normal? I dunno who the GLs are in those groups, haven't looked at it yet. I wouldn't really know them either coz I think the current year 1 batch.. I haven't had much interaction with them at all.

But, wow, I'm so excited for all of you!!!! New environment, new everything, but don't worry your seniors will have you well taken care of ;)

See y'all around in school yarrr.

at work.

Sigh, today was definitely not one of my good days at all.

First thing after my trip from Bangkok, I went straight for filming the next day. Never knew how unprepared I actually was. And I paid the price for it.

Sigh sigh sigh.

It's always painful mistakes that you learn from.

My trip to Bangkok was fun, yet I can't help but regret going for it. Lack of foresight really. Those precious days spent in Thailand were too precious for 3 days taken off production from my episode. Sigh.

That's one.

Another is, I should've consulted my bosses before heading for my Sunday shoot. The worst thing isn't landing yourself in hot soup... it's having wasted OTHER people's time. That's the worst thing of all. Argh. I don't care if I get into trouble, but when you feel that you've troubled other people, now that sucks.

Yet, sometimes I think my bosses forget that I'm actually an intern, not a full time producer. As much as I like knowing that they trust me with stuff and think I'm capable, I am still a novice. I need to learn. I can't totally be entrusted to do things I'm unfamiliar with. Sigh.

But I guess, maybe this IS what I need to learn. Make painful mistakes and learn, learn, learn.

A couple of colleagues have cried at work before, but I think... cannot lah. I could've suffered a breakdown today. Become mental. But nah... As much as you feel stressed, I think.. work is work. That's just what it is, can't take it too personally, or you'll go psycho I tell ya.

No tears, no fears man! Fwahahah, I'mma cheer myself up today.

IM FLYING TO THAILAND AT 5PM TODAY

And I've a shoot today at 12-3pm.
3.30pm check-in at airport.

Friday I come back at 11.50pm
Saturday I've a shoot at 10-12pm
And a second shoot at 1-4pm.
Sunday I've another shoot at 11-1pm.
Monday I've a shoot at 9am-12pm
Tuesday I've another shoot at an unconfirmed timing.

SIAO LEH.

Kids, this is what I call a lack of foresight. I booked a flight to Bangkok with my friends on May 6 thinking that I wouldn't have another assignment. On top of that, there's UNREST in Thailand now as well.

I just pray that there won't be an airport lockdown. Or my flight gets delayed. CANNOT AFFORD to miss any of the shoots. I MUST come back on time.

I hope I'll live to tell the tale after 2 days. I'm flying back on my own.

See y'all suckers!!!! Omg, I really hope I get back on time, that's all I hope for. Scoot, please don't cancel/delay my flight. I REALLY can't afford a flight delay. I'd rather give up a padthai or a tomyum than have another day in your airport. Thanks.

I was so tired I slept upon returning home after a meeting last night. And here I am awake at 6+am, completing my mission of work before flight.

AND I HAVE YET PACKED MY LUGGAGE. (but I'm secretly not scared coz it's just 2-3 days. I'm gonna just dump stuff and travel light)

Lucky my shoot is at Simei. So Imma just pop by Changi Airport STRAAAIGHT.

LEMME COME HOME ON TIME *CROSS FINGERS*

Even though ASOS lost my parcel, their music for catwalks are the best.
That's where I get my music LOL.

Working from home today, and groovin to this piece of music helps me with my loneliness........ deep in the silence of the house hahaha. Talking rot. CHAO CHAO.

... with my secondary school friends.

I used to think friends are forever, but as I move on in life, I start to realise... this notion, cannot and will not sustain for every friend. I honestly really thought it was impossible to lose touch with friends. I mean, we shared great experiences, memories that I can never exchange for the world. But somehow.. along the way, I get the sense that we are all moving along. We realise we no longer have time for each other, we find new people whom we share and discover new interests with. Boyfriends, new friends, we don't have as much time for one another back in the day when we were only 15. I notice as we form new relationships, the old fade away and we no longer can spread ourselves everywhere and share our love with each and everyone. It's sad and I cannot help but feel this way... And I have been feeling this way for a long time and been yearning to blog about it but stopped short every time. Recently I've been feeling particularly disappointed at reaching the state of where my friendships is now because to me, friends are very important. So having to feel lost, to lose faith in friendships I treasured so much when I was younger, is upsetting. I still treasure them, but I'm starting to lose hope. Sometimes when meet ups do occur, I realise our conversations and the atmosphere are no longer what they used to be. Our paradigms have shifted, we prioritise differently and pursue very different things in life. There's no more common bind that used to run through all our interactions.

I also realised, years sometimes don't count. Not all friends who know you longest, know you best.

I used to not understand why people break up. How can two people, who once shared such loving memories filled with joy and laughter, end up broken and tattered and becoming 2 disparate peoples. Why can't they simply jog down memory lane and relive what used to be - simple as that. Life needn't be so complicated.

But, I kinda understand why now. They say it's because people change. I like to say, people are just moving on... they realised they have found different fulfilling things in life. To be stuck in the past, will not do. And for two souls to part and find their own selves and ways, is in fact, better off.

Sigh, the pains of growing old. Guess I just gotta get used to it. I can't help but want to cling on to these friendships. After all, we've been through so much, why not stick it out? It's been close to a decade... yet, we want to settle for this?

I must admit though that it is getting tiring to keep up, when no one else really tries. Mere promises that never bear fruit. What has become of us!

Beer for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Beer everything, supper maybe even.

WHEEEEEE!!!!!

My wkwsci friends and I "graduated" from internship with a beer fest at Cuscaden.

I actually think my batch bonded more during internship... at a time when we don't see each other often. Isn't that strange? But I think it's precisely because of that, more effort is put in for bonding. Kudos to the people who arrange a gathering every now and then.

Some of them were saying they reckon it'd be the last drinking session for all, but I think it won't be eh?

Everyone's relieved internship has ended, only a few like moi have extended.

School's beginning in August, I think all of us can't believe we'll be in our final year, good Lord. Final Year Project to chiong for too. Everyone's dreading it coz seniors tell us... it'll be the toughest school phase of our time in Uni. But... I'm secretly excited to start FYP??! I love my all-girl group - Zhuoda, Amelia and Sianpei and I think we're gonna produce a BOMBZ of an interactive docu. No shit man. I dunno why, but I have a lot of confidence in our group and excited for our eventual FYP product. I really am. (and to be honest, I'm more excited for it than Sweden :S) - I'm less confident of Sweden. I think my project on Sweden is harder and I've reasons. The video group I'm in is lacking technically, and I'm reallllyyy worried about it coz I am not strong in that aspect. I really hope things go smoothly but I've a feeling there's a lot of places for learning through obstacles presented to us. Argghhgurgh, but I send best of luck to myself and hope things work out in the end!

Anyway, back to beer, I had a fair share of it that night, but I've a policy and principle not to GET drunk. Or at least appear drunk. I think... it's very.. unglamourous haha and in all honesty, very irresponsible of yourself to get drunk. Then people must take care of you and wipe your mouth and clean up your merlion mess. Then they must also become your listening ear for your stupid nonsense hahaha. Can't help but judge drunkies

But I kinda know how girls can get raped just being under the influence of alcohol. Your sense of awareness is dampened tremendously. I think... it is really very dangerous for girls actually. WE NEED TO STAND UP AGAINST THIS. Somebody needs to start a campaign. Coz seriously, that night, even though I could hold conversations with people normally, in my head I just kept thinking, "omg I really want to sleep" and I remembered thinking, "woah, I'm so tired, if I knew someone was gonna rape me, I honestly don't know if I can fend my attacker COZ IM SO TIREDzZzzzZZzz". And after my friend alighted from the taxi at Tampines, I CONKED OUT until a traffic junction when the driver had to wake me up to ask where exactly my house was. Seriously, he could've driven me somewhere god forbidden and raped me eh! Dan-juh-rous.

But it was a good night all in all.


Final year I'm excited and coming for yaaaa!!!

Btw, a monk said to me at the start of the year that my IQ dampened just by looking at MY FACE but said it'll peak in September LOL LOL, maybe it's while doing FYP when I flex my brain muscles and put it to tremendously good use till my IQ peaks.
Really hate listening to fortune telling even tho I never asked for one, he just TOLD me. They're so self-prophesising for people like me who can't help but be pantang about such things. Thanks.. but.... NO THANKS!

Yesterday during drinks session with my wkwsci homies, they asked why I extended my internship, they can't fathom how I can enjoy work so much.